6 weeks

I feel sick. Yep, it's started, the nausea. The good news is that I'm not throwing up and last time it only lasted until about weeks 12. So the bad news, I still have 6 more weeks like this :(. It could be worse...my cousin was so sick during her pregnancy she had to take something to not throw up. I cant believe she went through that.
I'm sipping on coffee right now because I think I have a caffiene headache from yesterday because coffee made me feel sick. But today it seems to be helping me feel better and i also have lavender rubbed on my feet which also seems to be helping. I found this website that has some natural remedies for pregnancy related things and I'm going to try all of the nausea ones today lol.
I've also noticed my breasts getting tender too. It doesn't hurt very bad when Luke nurses and it's really not too big of deal which is good, thankfully. We'll see how it goes.
My back is better! The acupuncture really did wonders and all the rest I had this weekend helped too. My husband did everything for me this weekend. I basically just laid around. And I'm almost finished watching The Office in its entirety again. It's still just as funny.
There were a few good things that happened when i hurt my back. One of them was that I left Luke with my mother in law while I went to urgent care. It was his first time being away from both of us. And he didn't care in the slightest! Even though it was sad for me, its good to know that he's fine. So far, I know he'd be just fine with my MIL because he loves her and my best friend Usa, who he's obsessed with.
Luke also spend a lot of time with Ben this weekend running errands and going places. All of which he was completely fine doing and sometimes i almost think he does better with my husband because there is no option of nursing all the time.
Anyway, my husband is back at work today... So it'll be my first full day taking care of Luke since I hurt myself and started to feel sick. I hope it goes ok. I'm thinking about getting some signing time movies at the library to watch in case i feel like just laying on the couch. Only 6 more weeks,6 more weeks.

Wordless Wednesday - Luke's Walking Cane

 

 

Lower back pain- Relaxin

This hormone relaxin came early for me again this pregnancy.  I was moving a bed into the spare room yesterday... yeah I know I probably shouldn't have done it, my husband told me not too... i knew I shouldn't have.  But we had people coming to look at the house.  I bent over pushing the box springs on the bed frame and OUCH!  A very bad pain went around my pelvis.  OH my gosh did it hurt.  Ben was on his way home but not there yet.  Thank goodness he was almost home.  I screamed and Luke came running looking at me like I was going to die.  I kept it together trying my hardest not to hysterically cry.  I did everything I could to walk into my bed.  I got there and laid down, Luke followed and we watched videos on my iPhone while I was painfully waiting for Ben to come home.
I went to the urgent care later on in the evening... but of course, breastfeeding and pregnant, I can't really take much of anything.  I can take Tylenol.  That does nothing.   But I did get the supportive back thing because it seems that my pelvis is already relaxing and needs support.  Ben is home with me today and I'm just laying around watching Season 3 of The Office, again.
Oh boy, this might be a long pregnancy.

News and thoughts with fears

I'm 5 weeks and two days pregnant, according to my iPhone pregnancy app. I'm excited. Though i always feel like it's hard to get as excited as the people i tell. I just can't get really excited over and over with out it being fake.
I mean, i am excited. I wanted to have kids close in age. I always wished i had a brother or sister. But there are so many things I'm concerned about.
My main concern is breastfeeding Luke. I wanted to nurse him until he naturally weans. I mean, i know i can nurse through pregnancy and beyond but i am worried it won't work out. There's always the change in milk, the decreased amount of milk, etc etc. My son is a comfort nurser, and my husband re-assures me that he needs to nurse and would probably nurse even if there was no milk at all. But I still want all the benefits if nursing for him.
Which leads me to my next concern and idea- I've never left Luke somewhere much less over night, he woud be fine for a litte bit at a friends or family but a hospital birth is out of the question since he still wakes up to nurse in the night and nurses to sleep most nights. And I really don't want to push that until I know he's ready. (I know some will think that is crazy but it's how we parent). For this reason and for my always wanting to have a home birth, I am going down that road, which is probably also just as popular as tandem nursing lol.
Anyway, I suppose most of my blog posts from here will be about this. I couldn't remember a thing from my pregnancy with Luke so I'm hoping to record more about it this time.
So far I'm feeling pretty good. I am seeing spots in my eyes sometimes, like an ocular migraine with out the headache. My. Midwife says it's the blood flowing other places that my head. I'm wondering if its lack of caffiene. (still driking some coffee but trying to cut back. Or that i need to drink and eat more to support pregnancy AND nursing. Either way, it's been a few days since i've seen spots! My lower back hurt a lot yesterday. But other Than those observations everything is going well. Even nursing is going ok, no sore breasts yet, even though I'm parinoid in wondering if my milk tastes different yet, so far so good.
I look forward to seeing how everything plays out. Prayers are greatly appreciated for baby and Luke and for me, and i suppose my loving husband who is just so kind in taking over more chores and things so i can rest, even though i don't feel like i need to yet.
Anyway, I'll write more about the home birth and my midwife later. Time for my limited amount of coffee... now!

Wordless Wednesday - Luke In Hawaii!

And now after being on a sunny warm island for a week, it's back to the northwest's fall gloomy weather.  Oh boy do I miss summer.