Release

I've been using my oil called "release" in the shower. I just drop a couple drops in before the shower. Smells amazing.  What I thought it was for is just releasing stress. What I didn't know is that it can release all kinds of feelings. I can't make these up. The oils are powerful. 

I've been having a lot of big feelings this postpartum. Stuff I'm learning. Stuff from the past coming up. Just postpartum stress in general. There's good days and bad. There's a lot of ups and downs. I will say that the Febuary sun we've been having helps a lot. 

I had not taken my fish oil for a week and I was noticing my moods last week were not as great. My son had dental surgery and it didn't help. And I realized that I do feel down sometimes. I wouldn't say depressed. But that's a place I don't wanna get to. 

Being a mom is hard. Like really hard. One of the hardest things. Being a twin mom is really hard. I know things will change and it may not get easier but the challenges will be different. Instead of being stuck on the couch nursing I'll be chasing toddlers. 

Just musings for now :)